A Real Reading

1.

A real reading
is in the Church of Nature–outdoors
a real reading
comes from the Church of God–in the Soul
a real reading
is from the Church of the Heart–deep inside

a real reading
doesn’t wait for the Opportune Time
a real reading
doesn’t happen in the Right Place
a real reading
doesn’t Seize The Moment

2.

This is The Time
This is the place
This is the Moment
of a real reading

3.

It’s a small
downright tiny
Sacrifice to lie
Naked
on my girlfriend’s couch
in the cold indoor night
to receive these words.

It’s a small tiny modern day
sacrifice
to be scared at the top
of a twelve foot ladder
over a twelve foot (deep) swimming pool
scared with indecision

4. 

Will I tip into a belly flop
if I go head first
Should I test this pool
with “feet first”

in my unending indecision

my nervousness breaks the

l
a
d
d
e
r

and I fall in

the ladder sacrificed

and I survive an

5.

Embarrassing Fall.

It is a small and tiny
sacrifice
to write these words

my hands
hurting                                    the
more as I continue


It is the tiniest and

most frustrating, severe

sacrifice

6. 

to settle for a long squeezing
embrace from a fond acquaintance*
I’ve never met
instead of remembering the lyric
he recited
a potential verse to a song
he’d never finish
because he’s dead and
               this is a Dream

And lyrics, like poems and speeches

cannot be retrieved from dreams.

7. 

We all know That.

From Experience.

And from Experience

We also all know

that the Big Sacrifice

               cannot be planned or thought

               About.

8.

The Sacrifice that

changes the world

isn’t premeditated

Planned in Advance

or Charted per a Diagram


A True, Right, and Moral

               Sacrifice

               is a journey that’s unknown

9.

Until it’s Over.

So Start Today

Don’t follow Your Fear
Embody your Fear

Til It is a Comfortable Suit

You Relish


All one Color or Rain Bow

10.

This is Your Suit

of Courage

Born of Fear

in the Middle of the Night

or Bright Sunny Day

or Flight Thru a Storm Cloud

Let Your Fear
Be Brave
And your light will shine like

11.

No          Other


Like no other

will you then Be.

*Kurt Cobain, My Haunting Imaginary Friend

2:08am, 01 July 2020

In the Dark
I am
Til They Shone Thru Me
and I let them without a Fight.
I am pure thru their Cleansing.

Postscript

I am the
Interesting Locutor*
that cancelled
the crimes
of humanity
in exchange
for writing
the only
insanity
that makes
sense.

*Spanish for announcer

6:53am, 27 June 2020